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" To live well myself is my first and essential contribution to the well-being of all mankind and to the fulfillment of man's collective destiny. If I do not live happily myself how can I help anyone else to be happy, or free, or wise? Yet to seek happiness is not to live happily. Perhaps it is more true to say that one finds happiness by not seeking it. The wisdom that teaches us deliberately to restrain our desire for happiness enables us to discover that we are already happy without realizing it."

- Thomas Merton, Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander, p. 81.

Like many others I know, I grew up with an inherited ethos and a doctrinal prerogative hell-bent on "helping" people by convincing them to believe the "right" truth. I even went to college and earned a degree in truth-speaking. I have dedicated many years of my life to teaching a better way of living, even before I discovered how to live happily myself. Now just 2 days into my 50th year on the planet I am aware that I believe without a shadow of a doubt that my best impact on people with whom I would wish to share positive influence is in how I live. My spiritual footprint is only as large as the path that I tread. Words are okay if they are used to describe the life I am actually living or to affirm the value and beauty of life around me, but they have little value if I only use them to talk about theories of living that exceed or contradict my own experience.

Like Thomas Merton wrote, it is evident to me that there is a paradox at work with regards to discovering real happiness in this life. Happiness is not something to seek and find, in itself, but rather a gift to embrace that has already been given. My part lies in simply becoming aware that God has already given me everything I need for life and goodness, and this comes most quickly through a daily practice of prayer and mediation and regular acts of service to others. Together, these spiritual principles allow me to "get happy" and learn to be content in any and all circumstances. This is the real work of the Kingdom of God, the inside job stuff that truly allows us to change, grow, and be like Christ to those around us. This real happiness, in no way linked to the purchase, acquisition, or possession of any material good, is what we are all wired to seek and what we are all spinning our wheels to find.

Today, may we all find a quiet moment and place in which to take a deep breath, settle into an awareness of the goodness and happiness that is our spiritual birthright, and hear the affirming inner voice of our Creator say, "Rest in me. I have you right where I want you."

Thank you for sharing the journey with me.

I can’t remember. I know I am supposed to know something but I cannot remember what. There was something before now, something very significant, something supernatural. But I don’t know what. As with everyone, I am part of some sort of Universal Whole, but in my bones I, unlike others, seem to have a deep knowing of exactly what this is. I know but I just can’t remember. Feels a little embarrassing. Surely, something, someone will soon remind me of what it is I know but can’t remember. I really look forward to this revelation. I feel ancient in this youthful, 30 year old, frame – ancient as the desert, ancient as the moon, older than the mountains and the seas. In my body I am young. But in my spirit, in my mind, I am very old. I am old. I Am.

The thing I have done my entire life I no longer want to do. I love the wood, but the nails seem to have something against me. I am convinced I am entering a process of new creation, creating a new self or better yet, revisiting a former, familiar self. All the building, the making, the tearing down, and restoring of physical structures matters not to me now. I will soon be visited, nay consumed, by a season, a dispensation, an era. A time for walking. Walking and talking will be my new job. I think I have something to say, though I know not yet what it is. It will come. A slow burn has begun in my soul. An old fire that warmed my brothers Isaiah, Joel, Jonah and David. The embers and ashes of their prophecies have landed on the roof of my house and I am ablaze with a purpose unrevealed.

Dead is the forest of the spiritual winter. Brown, wet, dark, dank. Barren limbs reach high in their final stretch from wooded graves. Here lies dormant the pregnant life of spring, the birth of Spirit and Sky – the new of the old. Dead is the Temple of Law where God once collected his thoughts and reasoned with men. Gone are the passion and freedom of a people once saved from the wilderness, the flood, the tyranny of Pharaohs and the deep silence of The Creator. Replaced by wrist boxes and foreheads full of rules, worshippers wander now about in fear, toting heavy baskets of false hope and wearing soft brains full of soggy self-concern. Is there nothing left but the shell of the House of God? Why such a love affair with a sun-bleached, wind-whipped carcass? I have something living in me not reflected in that standing rubble. I am expectant with fresh Holy! I wonder, how will the dead welcome the living?

I am a cursed man. What good is it to have knowledge of the Word of the Lord only to be surrounded by men with no understanding of its Truth? I am cursed with eyes that can only see the broken system that my fellow man has adopted for pursuing the mercy of God. They spit out the cream and prefer the splintered pail. Those Pharisees are a gaggle of noisy geese, each louder than the next, squawking about all that they know. They know shit about the heart of the Law. There is no love only legalities – no mercy only monstrosities – no God only god-awful disregard for the people for which the Father cares. (Who is the Mother, the Spirit of God?) This system must die. And in its death new life will rise. Who and how many will have to die with it? Seems that a part of God must die as well if a new thing is to be born. I wonder if I will live to see this.

I thought some of you might like to hear that (as of today) I am actively working on my next project for publication: The Journals of Jesus. I have much already written and much, much more to write. Thanks to some recent nudgings from valued friends I am excited to re-engage the creative process of writing and ready to get going on this second book. Another reason that I am ready to write is that I have recently been painting a lot and, as I wrote in God Touches, I believe that one form of creativity inspires and even ignites another. As the result, thos eof you who are on my e-list will be receiving your first taste of The Journals of Jesus in a posting later today.

If you have not yet ordered a copy of God Touches I want to ask you to do so. If you remain on my e-list without having read my first book you probably won't get the gist, the style, and the irreverent humor of my second one as I post portions of it along the way. If you have bought and read God Touches, please pass it on the someone whom you would consider to be Christ-Friendly but Church-Shy (read unchurched, out-churched, or de-churched). This is the type of person that I think will best relate to the spiritual journey I have documented in my book. And if you are in a position to do so, why not buy another copy and give it away to someone who might "get it"? You never know what difference it might make in a life.

Thanks for caring. Stay tuned for The Journals of Jesus. Of course, I might as well say "goodbye" now to those of you who will be completely offended by my unfettered writing and unsubscribe from my e-list. It has been nice to have you along.

Blessings on your journey with God.

So I heard from a bird this week that a certain christian church in a Western state recently made the decision to cancel a small prayer and meditation worship gathering because it did not fit within the parameters of their philosophy of spiritual development and programming. Sounds familiar. This gathering did not fit the church’s philosophy and programming from day one. Ironically, that’s why it was started; to provide a place and time for church members (including the church leadership) to grow in their relationship with God by expanding their personal and corporate practice of prayer and meditation. The wheels were in motion to cancel this thing two months after it started. It wasn’t so much a matter of small numbers, though the comparably light attendance figures were a problem for some from the beginning. It was more that the “program” of the silent gathering was unprogrammed and allowed for the possibility that someone might think something to themselves and assign an aberrant message to God. Hmmm. After all, we really can’t know for sure that God is speaking to us unless someone is reading the Bible to us, preferably someone ordained by an approved Bible College. God would never give each of us the ability to learn to hear His voice (like sheep know their Shepherd’s voice) when he has clearly given us preachers to tell us what God thinks and to explain to us how to interpret the ancient words he gave to Moses, Jesus and Paul. All religious people know that silence is a gateway for Satan to come in, therefore it is best if we never wait in quiet before the Lord (except by ourselves at home for our private devotions) when we can safely worship God with clanging cymbals and amplified gongs. Why, if we could hear God’s voice on our own or in small gatherings through Scripture, Spirit, and silence we might not see the need to attend the big worship services or support the institutional church at all. That would be bad. So, it really is best that this prayer and meditation gathering got cancelled rather than attended and championed by the ministry staff and eldership. In the long run, it was probably going to hurt the church. Prayer can do that, especially if we don’t really want God’s input into how we do church.

Enjoy Life,

Dan Gilliam

Rev. Mark Angel died working for God
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The Rev. Mark Angel, a Cincinnati native who was an involvement and outreach minister at Russell Christian Church in Eastern Kentucky, drowned Sunday afternoon while swimming in the Gulf of Mexico.
A certified swimming instructor, he had taken eight college students to Matamoros, Mexico, which is across the border from Brownsville, Texas, on a weeklong mission trip. The men were helping to build an addition to a church there.

Rev. Angel and two of his party were swimming at a beach south of Matamoros when he was pulled down by an undertow or a rip current and was swept into the gulf. Rescuers recovered his body and attempted CPR.

As overseer of the church's mission department, Rev. Angel, 41, went on many missionary trips in the United States and outside the country. His work, which included preaching and teaching, included construction of orphanages, churches and schools.He made blocks and dug ditches, said his mother, Gail Angel of Colerain Township. "He loved the Lord and all the work that went with serving Him."

He met Lori Alexander while on a mission trip to Haiti and married her in 1993. They have a 4-year-old daughter, Riley Grace.

Rev. Angel was born in Cincinnati on Dec. 22, 1965, and grew up in Colerain Township. He was an Eagle Scout and a member of the Colerain High School Class of 1984.After graduating from Cincinnati Christian University in 1988, he served as a youth minister at the Rising Sun Church of Christ in Ohio County, Ind., for three years.

He moved to Russell, Ky., which is on the Ohio River about 150 miles east of Cincinnati, in 1992. He was a youth minister at the church for eight years before being named minister of involvement and outreach.Among other responsibilities, he oversaw the church's ministry for college students and its outreach program.

"He looked for opportunities to reach out in the community and show people God's love in a practical way," said the Rev. Mark McKinney, pastor of the church."Mark was just a great guy. He always believed in everybody no matter what and people loved to be around him. He's going to leave a hole in our church and our community that will be very difficult to fill.
"He died doing something he enjoyed - working with missions and working with young people. It will be a great loss for us but a great gain for him through his faith in Christ."

In addition to his wife, mother and daughter, survivors include: his father, Howard Angel; and two brothers, Gary Angel, of Crosby Township, and Scott Angel of Cincinnati.
Visitation is 4-9 p.m. Friday and 11 a.m. to 1 p.m. Saturday at Russell Christian Church. Funeral services are 1 p.m. Saturday at the church.There will also be a celebration service in place of the regular service at 10:30 a.m. Sunday at the church. Burial will be at Bellefonte Memorial Gardens in Flatwoods, Ky.

Memorial gifts are suggested to Workers of Mexico or the Riley Angel Scholarship, both in the care of Russell Christian Church, 1402 Kenwood Drive, Russell, KY 41169.

I got a call at 2:00 this morning that my old friend, Mark Angel,
drowned while on a mission trip in Mexico. This may be the first you
hear of this and I am sorry you did not get a more personal notice. I
just needed to write about it and see it in print so that I can start
to believe it, although I'd rather not.

I met Mark in 1982 when he was a sophomore in High School and I was
his new youth minister. It took a little while for Mark to warm up to
me especially after I "busted him" coming out of an R-rated movie with
a couple of girls from the youth group. (He always made fun of me
because I was there having taken a date to see Black Beauty.) Two
years later, I took Mark on his first mission trip to Haiti. I had to
visit him at his job at Steak-n-Shake to tell him that he wasn't going
to be able to go on the trip unless he made all the mandatory
preparation meetings of which he had already missed a few. He asked me
if I thought he should quit his job for a stinking mission trip, to
which I replied, "You do what you need to do." I can't remember if
Mark every worked at Steak-n-Shake after that but I know he made all
the meetings and that our trip to Haiti had a profound impact on him.
For one thing, he met his wife to be, Lori Alexander, on that trip.
Her family lived in Haiti as missionaries. Over the years, I believe
Mark has been back to Haiti more than a couple of dozen times,
building orphanages, feeding and loving children, preaching about
God's love and enjoying the beauty of the Caribbean.

A couple of years later, Mark spent six months in Kingston, Jamaica
on a mission internship with Dennis Herko and his family. Gary, Mark's
brother, and I made a surprise visit to him and took a little vacation
over to the coastal resort town of Ocho Rios. I will be writing a
chapter for my next book about this experience as it was one of my
last alcohol binges before getting permanently (one-day-at-a-time for
17 years) sober. It broke my heart to see the look on Mark's face when
I told him that I had relapsed while on that trip. The realization of
the heart break I was causing others was a large part of what helped
me get and stay sober.

I have stayed in touch with Mark Angel over the years, more than
anyone else who was once part of the Ohio youth ministry I led from
1982-1986. Many times as I was passing through on I-64 I would give
Mark a call and we would meet for lunch or a cup of coffee. He was a
good friend and I will miss him dearly.

I don't know the details of his death or of the funeral arrangements,
but I will be attending whatever services that are held at First
Christian Church in Russell, KY. I don't doubt that thousands of
people are a part of the legacy Mark Angel leaves behind and that it
will be difficult to find an empty seat in the church. As with most
funerals, Marks' will likely be a reunion of many people who will be
saddened by the occasion but delighted for the opportunity to get
together and love one another. I can hear Mark now,
"Rrrriiiiiggghhhtttt. Hee, hee, hee."

I love you, Mark. I'll see you later.

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From his youth, Dan Gilliam has been seeking the path to true communion with God. Dan says his new book, God Touches: Finding Faith in the Cracks and Spaces of My Life (recently released by Standard Publishing), “is simply a record of how God has spoken to me in fresh ways through my life experiences.” These stories from Dan’s life illuminate a spiritual journey that causes him to challenge the status quo and seek a simplified expression of church, as found in the New Testament. Dan, a graduate of Cincinnati Christian University, and his wife, Lynn, live in Marion, Virginia, with their three cats.


How would you define the church?

One person honestly sharing his or her life and faith with another. This is church in the most simple "book of Acts" kind of terms. True spiritual fellowship is seeking God in authentic ways and getting together with others to talk about it. The church is alive and well all over the world in many ways that the institutional church isn’t aware of, simply because it isn’t being tracked, counted, or overseen. God knows where we are, however, and Christ is in our midst wherever and whenever we gather.


Can the church provide the kind of fellowship people need to thrive?

Of course. Spiritual fellowship is a viable option for many in the church, but much of it is available and occurring outside of the institutional programs of that which we traditionally call “the church.” It is scripturally incorrect to view churches as entities distinct from the people that make up the body of Christ. Depending upon religious institutions and human leaders to provide for us that which we should inherently seek and find as Christ-followers makes our Western view of church sort of codependant. There’s something “in the air” when you step inside a church building that says property, personalities, and preferences are what matter. I’m one of millions who have chosen (recently, again) to do and be church without having aspects such as these to deal with in order to experience spiritual growth and fellowship.


I think your talking about community. How do you define community?

I think spiritual community is any gathering of people who are trying to be honest with each other—showing unconditional love and acceptance for one another and seeking God’s will and way for their lives. Christ has made this possible and people are starting to figure out that the spiritual life can be real and exciting, fun and free when shared with others who aren’t afraid of their humanity This means, of course, that there will be conflict and difficulty. Avoiding certain topics or situations just because they’re uncomfortable isn’t an option like it is in the big church. The institutional church in my opinion is too committed to cleaning things up before they can be part of our gatherings. God is not uncomfortable with messy things or people. Jesus seemed to prefer people who didn’t look all that good on the outside.


Has your experience as a church staff member jaded you?

Probably. But God has knocked many, many chips from my ministerial shoulders. I’m sure I still have a long way to go. Once you are on a church staff and you see behind the “Oz” curtain, it is difficult to go back to seeing things from your previous limited perspective. On the bright side, having been on staff at several large churches helped to drive me deeper into my walk with God and my community with others, even though I had to go outside the institution to get this. Ironically, I have found working for a church to be spiritually hazardous. This is probably why I have not served in a professional capacity for more than a couple years at a time. I find church to be more real when God is allowed to speak through more than a small handful of people, and this can only happen, in my opinion, when you don’t have a mortgage, a weekly programmed event, or a paid staff.


It seems as if your parents’ divorce started a real downward spiral for you as a teen? Would you call that the defining event of your life?

I wouldn’t say the defining event. It certainly was the first major twist away from how life was unfolding for me. I think it was the beginning of my own journey toward finding a relationship with God that was uniquely mine; therefore it was certainly a defining event. My perspective has been shaped to see that God can redeem any event, no matter how tragic, to his purposes. Unfortunately, it is usually hardship or devastation that causes people to step back from their routine, religious and otherwise, and say, “I know what I’ve been told. Now, what do I really believe?” When we have life-threatening circumstances that force us to let go and trust God for help, he is released to work in us in ways we did not know possible. In this respect, I have come to be grateful for every difficulty in my life. They have allowed God to change me in ways I could never have changed myself.


Would you call yourself the prodigal son?

Oh yeah. More than once. I’m the perpetual prodigal son. I’m pretty sure I’m done leaving the fold, though. If the fold is a religious institution, I’m a prodigal son again. If the fold is the kingdom of God, I’m smack dab in the middle of it. I kind of like wearing the robe and ring and have developed a taste for fatted calf, medium well.


How would you be different if your parents hadn’t divorced?

I probably would have just been another version of who I am now, but with not as many colorful stories to tell.


What other struggles have you faced in life?

As an adult I had a defining moment when I left my first youth ministry under duress because of an addiction to prescription drugs. This opened a Pandora’s box of alcoholism for me that had, for the most part, been in remission since my freshman year of Bible college. I was completely stripped of all I had and knew when it appeared—to my surprise—I would survive it. That, I think, led to a kind of a launching point into what I’ve become now—and what I will become. In 1989, with no place left to go, I found myself glued to a chair in an anonymous 12-step fellowship. That’s where my truest transformation and my best experience of New Testament Christianity occurred. I need to write a whole other book about the other hardships and how God has shown up in the darkest places imaginable to redeem me and show me the way home. Staying active in my 12-step fellowship allows me the opportunity to see God do this for others on a regular basis. I don’t think you get to see people change all that much in traditional expressions of church.


So good can come from bad?

I wouldn’t be who I am now without the good and bad. Whoever said, “I’m a sum total of all my experiences,” spoke for me. I hear scriptural truth ring in that quote—it’s like Romans 8:28. I’m grateful for all those potholes in my spiritual road because they’ve allowed me to bottom out, look at where I’m going, and let God alter my course as necessary.


What do you think it means for a person to be broken?

As you ask the question I can still taste the brokenness lingering in my mouth. Just like anyone who has ever had their face smack down on concrete or asphalt, you don’t forget the sensation or the sound. Brokenness, to me, is a relinquishing of control of my life. It’s getting my knuckles wrapped enough times with some kind of cosmic ruler where I finally let go of the reins. For me, I had to lose a marriage and career and be hospitalized a half-dozen times before I was able to let go and let God. I had to lose absolutely everything before I was 30 years old to say, “OK, God, I don’t have any ideas any more of how you should work in my life.” I gave it up to God and daily give it to him to work in my life any way he would choose. Up until then, I would say “God, I give you permission to work in my life in ways that I deem fit for you.” I see many people whose relationship with God is like that. It doesn’t work very well and it keeps God at a distance, though we usually don’t know it.


Is recovery just for alcoholics and drug addicts?

In modern language we use the word recovery most often to refer to alcoholics and drug addicts. Recovery is just another version of the spiritual program God has given mankind through the revealed Word. Recovery, particularly the 12-step variety, is definitely for alcoholics and drug addicts. Redemption is for everyone. From where I sit, it appears the church is really struggling to find ways to help members of the body of Christ experience the process of sanctification that is intended for us. Getting our souls into heaven, while a welcomed prospect, is a worn-out message for those who are saying, “Hey, I need some salvation in the here and now.” Salvation and sanctification are not separate messages; they’re two branches on the same stick of spiritual development.


How would you define sanctification?

Sanctification is coming to terms with who we are and trusting God to change us into the likeness of Christ. For the most part we are dirty, nasty, ugly, mean, and greedy people, but God is not shocked by that. he is fully prepared for us to be who we are and has launched a plan for us to change. Sanctification is God changing us from the inside out. Too much of modern religion focuses on external activity that is not necessarily flowing from an internal transformation. In God’s economy, it’s a package deal. It seems people are trying to change their insides by working harder on the outside. Service to others will never be truly rewarding or lead us to internal and miraculous transformation unless accompanied by the spiritual disciplines of prayer, meditation, confession, restitution, forgiveness, etc. These may sound like external works, but they are simply keys that allow us to open doors to the workings of the Holy Spirit.


You write about “living an authentic life.” What does that mean?

For me it has meant discovering and experiencing multiple layers of being who I really am—“who God is making me.” It’s experiencing self-acceptance in my relationship with God and unconditional love in my community with others. Living authentically is being aware of your “OK-ness” because of what Christ has done. This is a basic symptom of authentic spirituality. I like myself today, in part, because I am truly and uniquely the "me" God intended.


What would you call yourself . . . storyteller, writer, sage, counselor, theologian, artist? Do any of these rise to the top?

I’m flattered by the choices. I would say artist best describes how I view myself, but I prefer the term “contemplative” because I tend to look for God as he reveals himself in all things and all people. I’m more of a Christian mystic, because I don’t think we can get our minds around who God is and all that he is doing. I celebrate the mysteries of life and embrace all that I don’t understand, though this is a process. I consider myself to be more a spiritual person trying to have a human experience rather than a human being trying to have a spiritual experience.


Who should read this book?

God Touches is written primarily for people who are spiritually hungry but religiously tired. I realize it could also be an encouragement to someone who is active in a congregation but seeking fresh expressions of how to do and be the church. There are novel and energizing expressions of church waiting to be discovered by anyone willing to step back and review what they have been taught, look at Scripture with new eyes, and say with an open heart and mind, “God, show me your ways.” From what I have seen, God is waiting for us to seek him in all of life, in the ordinary as well as the extraordinary.

If you haven't yet ordered or received your copy of God Touches, you can now "Search Inside" the book here: http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0784719632

Features include Back Cover, Copyright Page, Table of Contents, Exerpt, and Surprise Me! which takes you to a random place in the book.

You can also do a word or phrase search and see all the places in the book where that subject is referenced.

I want to thank you for your support during this my first publishing campaign. It is my hope that God Touches will acheive and maintain a little market traction and momentum so that I will be able to finish and publish my next book.

If you happen to be one of my many friends who bought their copy of God Touches on Amazon.com, you can help me by taking a minute to write a brief "Customer Review". This will allow folks who don't know me to order the book based on a reference from someone who has read it.

Again, thanks for your support. let me know how I can be an encouragement to you.

Peace, love, and self-promotion,

Dan Gilliam

Directions for group facilitator:

A. Have one of more persons read aloud from Chapter Three of God Touches: Finding Faith in the Cracks and Spaces of My Life.

B. Share a period of silence (1-3 minutes) allowing time for words and thoughts to settle and for God to speak to each heart.

C. Read one of the following questions (facilitator’s choice) aloud giving each person in the group an opportunity to respond once before anyone speaks twice. It is best if no one person is allowed to dominate the discussion (including the facilitator).

D. If a particular question sparks the imagination of the group, feel free to let them run with it. There is no need to get through all the questions. Their purpose is simply to activate an authentic discussion about faith and life however this may occur.


Chapter 3, “Baptism – Wet Hugs and Do Overs”.

1) Tell the story surrounding your baptism, if you have one. If you have had more than one baptism, explain why you felt the need for a “do over”. How was the second one different from the first?

2) Do you recall any sense of urgency about your getting baptized? Were you pressured in any way or was the idea and the decision completely yours? Do you think your choice to be baptized was based more on your fear of Hell or your love of God?

3) After your baptism did you find that you had any increased ability to sin less or obey more? Were you given any instruction then and do you have any understanding now about how to access the power of God on a consistent basis? Enlighten us, please.

4) Has your final soul destination (Heaven or Hell) long been a concern of yours? Do you have lingering concerns about where you will go when you die? Do you think it is possible to feel secure about your eternal destination? How does one go about feeling good about this?

5) What would you consider to be the beginning point (from a linear perspective) of your spiritual journey? Describe how you knew you were having the beginnings of a spiritual experience.

6) In what ways would you say you have taken responsibility for your own soul? How do you help others do this? How have you seen people rely on someone else to take responsibility for their spiritual growth?

7) Can you identify with the phrase “daily baptism of spirit”? Practically speaking, what does this look like in your life? If you wanted to pursue this daily baptism how would you go about it?

End your time together with a short reading or a brief prayer (or not).

This morning at 6:30 I shared with Dr. Alvin Jones in a 15-minute
radio interview about my book "God Touches". This is one of a dozen
radio interviews I am doing this month to promote the book.
WCBQ-WHNC-AM in Oxford, NC carried the interview live and while I was
still waking up early in the call I think it was a positive
opportunity to share some of what God has done and is doing in my
life.

It was quite an honor to be interviewed by Dr. Alvin Jones. Check out
his web site to see the list of recognizeable people he has interviewd
over the years.

www.dralvinjones.com.

Here is the link if you'd like to listen to the interview:

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Directions for group facilitator:

A. Have one of more persons read aloud from Chapter Two of God Touches: Finding Faith in the Cracks and Spaces of My Life.

B. Share a period of silence (1-3 minutes) allowing time for words and thoughts to settle and for God to speak to each heart.

C. Read one of the following questions (facilitator’s choice) aloud giving each person in the group an opportunity to respond once before anyone speaks twice. It is best if no one person is allowed to dominate the discussion (including the facilitator).

D. If a particular question sparks the imagination of the group, feel free to let them run with it. There is no need to get through all the questions. Their purpose is simply to activate an authentic discussion about faith and life however this may occur.


Chapter 2, “Truth or Dare – Lying to Self or Living by Grace”.

1) Tell about a time in your life when you disengaged yourself from the truth when it was in your best interest to do so. How did things work out better for you because of your lie?

2) What is the most outlandish lie you have ever told? Did you convince anyone to believe it? Did you tell it so many times that you believed it yourself?

3) Does the phrase “self-reliant path of least resistance” ring any bells for you? Tell about an instance from your life when this philosophy failed you.

4) Have you ever associated spiritual, mental, and emotional pain as “rotten fruits of self-reliance”? Talk about a time when this has been true for you. What, if any, are the current fruits of self-reliance in your life?

5) Have you figured out yet that the “easier, softer way” is obedience to God’s will? How is living by grace better for you than relying on self-righteousness? What does obedience to God look like in your life?

6) In the “12-Step program of Christianity” as described in the second chapter of God Touches in which “step” would you say you are currently experiencing growth or growing pains? Which “step” do you think you will never get to? Which one comes easy to you?

7) Describe, if you can, the event or process of your “simple acceptance of his (Christ’s) work and gift”. How would you say this is leading to your “salvation and sanctification”?

End your time together with a short reading or a brief prayer (or not).

This is my experience. This I know to be true:

Deep in our hearts, buried in the core of our internal being, we have a space for the Divine that can only be filled by God. Many theologians and philosophers, artists and writers have said this before me. I know it to be true from my own journey into the spiritual experience. I hear people talk about it almost daily.

After a lifetime of church-based instruction about God there came a point (when I was ready and not before) when above all else I desired something larger than the teachings about God that I had generously been given by my fellow man; I longed for something greater than someone else’s testimony of God. I was tired of knowing things about God but not knowing God. I made a decision to move beyond the beatitudes and platitudes that I had been hand-fed my entire life. I did not need any more answers. I needed God.

So I left the church in search of God. Armed with nothing but a bitter taste in my mouth of what I did not want and a wisp of faith that God was capable of revealing God’s true Self to me through whatever means necessary, I launched out on my journey. This was my dark night of the soul; this was my mustard seed genesis that has grown into a tree-sized system of belief and action that governs my every move and decision.

There are many among us, and I was one, who have heads full of the knowledge of what the scriptures say about God, but who have very little sense of what it is to lead a God-surrendered or Spirit-filled life. I was taught much of what I knew about God by people who were quite possibly agnostics; at least they seemed unsure of what they believed when you got them down out of the pulpit where you could touch them, look them in the eye, and ask them questions. I find this to be true today of some of the loudest and most confident-appearing preachers. They seem to be preaching in order to convince themselves to believe. I don’t have a problem with this but I do think it’s ridiculous to let only one doubter, the one getting paid to be there, do all the talking in church.

Doubts are part of what makes faith authentic. “I believe, now help me with what I don’t believe.” (Mark 9:24 paraphrased) People who have biblical answers for every situation make me nervous. I prefer to hang out with spiritual seekers who are not uncomfortable with questions and who can laugh at the oldest of the sacred cows. Sacrilegious humor in my opinion is the most soul-cleansing.

Do not worry about the language you use when you seek God. God can handle it. Do not feel as if you must envision the person, the man, or the mystery of Christ for him to become real to you. Instead, let the eyes of your spirit look up to see God in the everyday wonder of life and contemplate whatever goodness you experience. God will meet you there and bring you to the highest forms of truth in God’s good time. For the time being, anything that brings you a sense of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control is the Spirit of the Almighty growing new life inside of you. Embrace these with your heart and soul and let your mind fend for itself. God has no difficulty in revealing who God is to those who earnestly seek God.

Let your fears fall from you, especially those that grip your heart and lead you to hold on to temporal and material things. Focus on love and fear will flee. God is love. Fear is self. Spirituality explores the freedoms of God; religion attempts to contain God and control what people think and believe about God. Religion costs money. God, however, is free. Though it may work for you, you don’t have to practice a religion to experience God, especially if it has been a source of bondage for you. And while you may have to work through feelings of guilt and shame because of your decision to leave it behind it is not all that difficult to do. As Paul Simon sang back in the 70s,

“…just drop off the key, Lee, and get yourself free.”

This is my experience. This I know to be true.

Directions for group facilitator:

A. Have one of more persons read aloud from Chapter One of “God Touches: Finding Faith in the Cracks and Spaces of My Life”.

B. Share a period of silence (1-3 minutes) allowing time for words and thoughts to settle and for God to speak to each heart.

C. Read one of the following questions (facilitator’s choice) aloud giving each person in the group an opportunity to respond once before anyone speaks twice. It is best if no one person is allowed to dominate the discussion (including the facilitator).

D. If a particular question sparks the imagination of the group, feel free to let them run with it. There is no need to get through all the questions. Their purpose is simply to activate an authentic discussion about faith and life however this may occur.

Week 2: Chapter 1, Creative Writing – Buzz Cuts, Bank Robbers and the Big Chief.

1) Is there a story you have told your whole life that may not be completely true? Tell that story now, please.

2) Can you relate to the idea of having “trouble distinguishing between fact and fairy tale”? Is this a current issue for you?

3) Tell us about your worst haircut and how it affected your social life. How is vanity a potential source of difficulty for you?

4) How is your view of war or motherhood different from when you were a child?

5) What role, if any, did creative writing play in your high school years?

6) Does writing play a part in your spiritual journey? How so? Is it easy or hard for you to be honest and revealing when you write? Why?

7) Have you recently read any “righteous ramblings from ancient saints or modern sinners” worth talking about?

End your time together with a short reading or a brief prayer (or not).

Directions for group facilitator:

A. Have one of more persons read aloud from the Introduction of “God Touches: Finding Faith in the Cracks and Spaces of My Life”.

B. Share a period of silence (1-3 minutes) allowing time for words and thoughts to settle and for God to speak to each heart.

C. Read one of the following questions (facilitator’s choice) aloud giving each person in the group an opportunity to respond once before anyone speaks twice. It is best if no one person is allowed to dominate the discussion (including the facilitator).

D. If a particular question sparks the imagination of the group, feel free to let them run with it. There is no need to get through all the questions. Their purpose is simply to activate an authentic discussion about faith and life however this may occur.

Week 1: Book Introduction

1) Talk about a misconception about God you have carried with you from childhood.

2) Tell about a time in your life when you wandered away from your “original systems of belief”. What did or does wandering back to faith look like for you?

3) How were (are) you different and what did (do) you believe differently about God upon your returning to faith?

4) What, if anything, do you find difficult or hard to swallow about the “modern mode of organized Christianity”? What about it works for you?

5) Tell the group about someone you know who grew up with the Truth but who is “in the process of determining whether they want to believe it and embrace it for themselves”. What does this look like for them? How does this affect you?

6) Does the notion of setting aside all you have been taught about God and allowing Him to recreate that for you sound appealing? What scares you about this? What excites you about this idea?

7) Do you believe God is capable of revealing to individuals who he is? How do you see him doing this in your life of the life of someone you know?

End your time together with a short reading or a brief prayer (or not).

Are you involved in a small group that meets regularly for the
purpose of growing in your faith?

Does your group include people who are curious about the claims and
person of Christ but burned out or disinterested in what the local
church has to offer?

Perhaps up to now your group has been primarily for Christians, but
you are at the point where you would like to broaden it to appeal to
some of your friends who are spiritually hungry but religiously
tired.

Would your group welcome an opportunity to side-step for a season the
traditional Bible study guides in order to read and discuss stories of
how God's fingerprints are touching every aspect of our daily lives?

If any of this rings true with you, then "God Touches: Finding Faith
in the Cracks and Spaces of My Life" would likely be an enjoyable
read and an enlightening resource for your small group.

"God Touches" contains 30 relatively short chapters that describe
some of the many ways that I have experienced the hand of God at work
in my life, only a handful of which have occured through an
association with organized religion. To give you a taste of what to
expect, here are a few of the chapter titles: Silence and Solitude -
Meat and Potatoes for the Soul, Worship - Outdoor Sanctuaries and the
Animal Kingdom of God, Church - Being and Becoming, Now and Beyond
the Blue, Listening - True Contemplation or Dog and Pony Show, and
Painting - Where the God in Art Meets the God in Me.

Read a print interview about "God Touches" at my Amazon.com blog
here:
(https://www.amazon.com/gp/pdp/profile)

Popular author and speaker Brian McLaren said, "'God Touches' offers
the blandly, stuffily or wearily religious a taste of Christian
spirituality that is spicy, natural, honest, and downright vivacious.
And it offers the irreligious a window into the soul of a man whose
faith never makes him less human, less thoughtful, or less
interesting. Beautifully written and inspiring too." - Brian McLaren
(www.brianmclaren.net)

Over the next four weeks I will be posting discussion questions at my
web site (www.DanGilliam.net) for four chapters from "God Touches". My
plans are to soon finish a discussion guide for the entire book.

"God Touches" is available for purchase now through Standard
Publishing.

You can order your copies here:
http://shopping.standardpub.com/detail.aspx?ID=3182

Here is the copy of a print interview I did recently.

Introduction: Our guest is singer/songwriter, artist and author Dan Gilliam. Dan has lived both inside and outside the walls of the church, as well on the streets, on the beach and in a motor home. He is with us today to share his fascinating story of spiritual journey beyond institutional Christianity and into a simpler and meaningful way of living out the principles of Christ and loving the people he created and cares about. His book is God Touches: Finding God in the Cracks and Spaces of My Life.

1. Dan, you were the son of a fundamentalist preacher but left the church and your faith as a teen. Can you share how you got to that point and what was to follow?

“Growing up in the church parsonage certainly had its advantages: a big place to play hide and seek during the week, Sunday School rooms to look for snacks and money, etc. I also had a front row seat to learn about the teachings of Jesus as well as a peek behind the scenes to see how Christians really lived. When my own parents couldn’t stay married because (as I thought) the Christian faith wasn’t working for them, I turned my back on God and the church for several years. I traded in my spiritual pursuits for alcohol, drugs, and a rebellious lifestyle which almost cost me my life. But the grace of God intervened and I was given another chance to try out the Jesus-Bible-Church thing.”

2. What led to your return to God and your reconciliation with family?

“At age eighteen I was living under a bridge in Tampa, FL and barely surviving as an alcoholic and drug addict. I rarely ate or slept, weighed 135 pounds and thought I was close to dying. One night I called out to the loving God I remembered from childhood and asked him to show me the way. I believe he answered my prayer in the form of a long-haired Christian dude passing out tracks on the street about John 3:16. I believe God sent this man to tell me that God still loved me. Within a week I was back in Virginia with my family. Within six months my church had helped me to get a G.E.D. and enrolled me in Cincinnati Christian University. I went from being a homeless alcoholic to studying for the professional ministry pretty quick. I would have more difficult lessons ahead of me.”

3. You write that God seems to prefer to minister through you more out of your brokenness than through your giftedness. Can you share an example of that?

“When I talk with people about what I have learned about God from study, school, church etc., I get blank stares and far away looks. But when I talk about what God has taught me through pain, struggles, devastation and recovery, I get interest, identification, connection, and community. This is the language of the heart that recovering alcoholics and Christian mystics know about. Until I had been sufficiently broken and had lost all dependence on self I could not really rely on God and share with others the transformative power of the gospel. We cannot give away something we don’t have. In my opinion, there are too many people in ministry who are trying to lead their congregations into the ways of the Spirit through the power of the flesh. As long as we think we can do the work only God can do we keep him at bay and provide people with a shallow substitute for authentic spirituality.”

4. You also say you journeyed out of institutional Christianity into a renewed faith in Christ and a “more honest expression of the Church.” What do you mean?

“Like many people I meet in this day and time, I got to the point where I didn’t need any more answers about God; I needed a relationship that would change my life. In all my years of giving organized religion an opportunity to show me this, no one could ever tell me how or where to find an authentic spiritual awakening. The same old answers like ‘Go to church’, ‘Read the Bible’, ‘Give money’, and ‘Pray’ weren’t cutting it. Then one day after I had made the decision to cut myself free from the local church scene, to live out my faith the best I could without religious trappings, God began to show himself to me in ways that I have since identified as another expression, for me a more honest expression, of The Church.”

5. After your adult relapses into drug and alcohol addiction, how did you finally get sober to stay? Do you have any advice for our listeners on how to help an alcoholic or drug addict to find sobriety?

“The best solution in the world today for anyone with a devastating addiction to alcohol, drugs, food, gambling, etc. is in 12-Step recovery fellowships. This is where more often than not God is showing up and changing people’s lives for the long term. And this goes beyond getting free from the symptom to which the person is addicted; those who take the 12 Steps seriously with the guidance of a sponsor and the fellowship of a group will experience change at a very deep and psychic level. As far as for those who want to help someone get sober, the only real tools are prayer and letting go with love. There are also effective 12-Step fellowships for friends and family members of addicts and alcoholics. Just as no one can experience any authentic spiritual transformation alone, neither can anyone recover from diseases of alcoholism or addition without help from God and people.”

6. What are three principles you have found that are Scripturally-tested for living like Christ today?

“Make and maintain a personal and daily connection with God; Experience spiritual journey in the company of like-minded others; Practice Christ’s love through simplicity, sacrifice, and service.”

7. How have you finally found contentment since returning to Christ?

“All that I am passionate about in this life seems to flow from an artistic template and a contemplative bent towards seeing and hearing God in all people, places, and things. I have sampled the spiritual awakenings that come through freedom in the Spirit and I have tasted the goodness of God in many forms of creativity. I have come too far down the corridors of authenticity to turn back toward the false self that is generated and sold by our materialistic culture. There is no substance in stuff and nothing satisfying about the possession of things. Pride of ownership, as purported to be at the heart of the American Dream, is a delusion and, sadly, the church has bought into this consumerist approach to feeding the souls of men. Poverty of spirit is the beginning of all fullness. Dying to self is the pathway to happiness, usefulness and peace. I seek others who will follow Christ with me in this journey.”

"I feel like I can breathe again after reading God Touches. Just when you thought religion would choke every last breath of freedom out of you, Dan Gilliam awakens you to realities you never dreamed possible with God. Too often Christendom dumbs down the Christian life to something shallow and narrow. God Touches unveils a Christian spirituality, which is deep and wide. Perhaps the most hopeful aspect of the book lies in the fact that what it offers can be experienced along the everyday paths of real life by nobodies like me."

Jim Palmer, author of Divine Nobodies: Shedding Religion to Find God (and the unlikely people who help you)

http://www.divinenobodies.com/

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

Reflecting back to a month ago when I was leaving my ministry post at LifeBridge Christian Church in Longmont, CO after only 16 months on staff, I realize that Lynn and I must have made pulling up stakes look rather easy. Lest anyone think I took this decision lightly, allow me to pontificate on how I view my role with regards to God’s work.

Anyone who has known me for long would likely characterize me as a spiritual gypsy of sorts. Over a span of 25 years since graduating from Cincinnati Christian University with a B.A. degree in God, Jesus and Bible, I have done a lot of creative things and have lived in a lot of cool places. (I have also been to hell and back but that's just part of the journey and I wouldn’t trade a day of it.) One factor that has allowed me the freedom to move about so much, chasing my muse and following what I believe to be leadings of the Spirit, has been how I view my role in the Church, or God's kingdom on Earth. Twenty years or so ago, I took myself and this role pretty darn seriously, not that this is a bad thing to do. But in my case, I actually believed that if something needed to be done for Christ's sake, it was really up to me to get it done. Who knows how many times I forced myself into a situation that would have been better served by me letting it alone? By God's grace and quite a bit of work on my own spiritual condition, over time I have acquired a little maturity under my belt to help me see what an ego-feeding proposition this mentality was for me. And while it took some pretty hard raps to my metaphorical knuckles to get me in a position to learn to "let go and let God" I have seen in recent years how minimal my role really is if God is allowed and invited to be in charge. Truth is there are some occasions where my best role is simply to get out of God's way so that he can do his work in others without my help. Imagine that, God doing his work with or without me? What a place of freedom this is, to trust God to do what he wants done in the world, the Church, my family, and in me and to properly estimate my role in his kingdom. When I place listening to and seeking God as a priority in my life and "ministry", and choose to love others as best as I can, I never have to wonder if I'm doing enough or being good enough. God knows and does and wills with or without me wherever I choose to live, work, breathe, and be. Take a deep breath and let that soak in. Now, go get a massage, bowl a couple of games, or just take the rest of the day off. God needs you to give him some room to work.

"My greatest hope with 'God Touches' is that it will find its way into the hands of the many of the Christ-friendly, church attendance-weary people that surround nearly all of us. In this book, I have tried to paint a picture of how the Church is more of a factor in the world and in people's lives than what individuals or the congregational church may realize. My personal journey from institutional Christianity to the discovery and embracing of spiritual development beyond the influence of organized religion is interesting to some, appealing to others and perhaps even appalling to a few. More and more, however, I am hearing my story from other kindred spirits who find comfort in knowing that it is possible to be part of a simple spiritual community and be at the heart of the kingdom of God without having to participate in programmed religious activities or support mega-facilities. It is possible as well that many people who are fringe attenders or even active members of such religious bodies will read 'God Touches' and be drawn into my stories about connecting with God and others through art, nature, prayer, contemplation, literature, friendship, silence, etc, etc. and step up to take their own spiritual commitments more seriously and become more Christ-like in their walks. Perhaps some will even become effective and influential spiritual leaders in their congregations. In this respect, 'God Touches' is a book that may very well help to soften the harsh lines some of us draw between those who seek God inside a congregational expression of Church and those who feel they can be active in the Church without such defined participation. After all, the kingdom of God is our goal and, in Christ, all who seek his kingdom, however this occurs, are one."

Here's the Amazon link where you can take a look at the book cover
and/or pre-order your copy.

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0784719632/ref=cm_blog_dp/105-0032884-1009203